Why do I feel like I'm drowning?

I am really happy here in Austria. There's a standard of living here that I didn't know in the States. Everywhere I look there is beauty. Beauty in the land, in the architecture, in the age, in the people and yet it's still very isolating. I think I miss NYC. I don't miss my hometown in Cali, I miss Manhattan. I miss Central Park, the stinking subways, the 8' snow drifts (black and yellow in color) that cause major problems while trying to cross the street! I miss rude NY'ers...the Yankees, Giuliani (though I certainly don't miss Bloomberg). The skyscrapers.. the Taxis. I miss driving down streets so full of deep potholes that your alignment needed to be re-aligned nearly every week. I miss the sounds, the noise, the constant drone cut open by screeching sirens 'round the clock. I miss the brightness of the air during mid winter when all the leaves have fallen and from the top of the Great Hill you can see all of Mid-town and most of Lower Manhattan... I miss the Met (who woulda thunk it??), Broadway, steaks at Roth's and calamari and chicken souvlaki at Niko's. I miss sitting outside, drinking fine wine on a warm, fragrant spring eve. I miss the deep orange, gold and red fall. I miss it so much my heart tears at the thought and my head swims.... I feel like one of those damn bobble heads people love to decorate their dashboards with. But for certain, a much more wise part of me never wants to leave Europe!